Extreme Home Makeover

I'm sure you have all seen this right?
Well the one that was shown this last week was practically in my back yard.
Actually was in the back yard of one of my fellow employees-who recently retired.
Oh okay a town or two away for me......
I was getting kinda tired of watching these.
This one though.
This boy is amazing!
If you haven't seen it you should take a look.

Hooking up Last week

-This is a very long post-hope you can get through it-

I had mentioned I had hooked up last week but didn't give a lot detail.
As I have been feeling a bit out of sorts about it.
I believe there was a bit of guilt for us both.
Even though he has an awesome wife who told him to "go for it".

We have talked about it for sometime and finally picked a day.
He found the hotel room and we met 1/2 way.
I got there before him. Sat in my vehicle for a bit and waited. The maintenance man was walking and and kept giving me a look.
I text him to let him know I was there. He was still 20 minutes out. So I took a little drive came back and waited less than 5 minutes. I see a truck pull up. OMG! It's him as we had exchanged pictures I knew it.
I get out and walk to his truck. He gets out, much taller than I expected. He says hello and gives me a gentle kiss. Soft and warm.
We walk to the office together he gives all the info to the front desk clerk.
Walking out in I'm front of him, he states "I can see this is going to be fun"
I blush hoping he can see it from behind me.
We find our room. He opens the door and waves me in.
I'm very nervous this is really all new to me. I grew up in the hills of Vermont on dairy farms.
Once inside I turn and he comes to me and gives me another kiss. He tells me soft lips.
I'm trembling so bad he feels it. He reassures me it's ok.
Tells me I'm prettier than my picture. I glow, and politely say "thank you"
As we kiss I believe I'm the first to start unbuttoning his shirt.
Once we're both naked he takes me to the bed and we kiss and fondle each other. He's the perfect gentleman.
Sticking his fingers in his mouth. Looking at me with lust in his eyes, he slides the into my warm awaiting pussy. I instantly moan with pleasure and close me eyes. He goes down on me and I have an orgasm almost immediately. He has me moaning louder and bucking off the bed.
I need to taste him. He pulls himself up to me we kiss I taste myself of his lips.
I now go down on him. I have seen pictures he's big! Well he's bigger than the pics show. I tell him so. I lick my lips and take just the tip of his cock. Pulling away I slide my tongue up and down his shaft to get him wet with my saliva. I then take all of him, well as much as I can. (-;
I tried to take him all in my mouth. I wanted to.

He asked do you want to feel my cock in your pussy. I let out a husky, yes please.
He puts on a condom. Comes back to the bed and as promised. Looks into my eyes as he slides into me. I love the feeling of him inside me. He's hits bottom. I told him he would.
The first round and slow and gentle. I cum again. When he gets close he pulls out and I take him in my mouth and he fills my mouth with his hot cum.

We lay on the bed together I'm breathless. We just lay there. Talk, close our eyes and catch our breath.

The second time around I start. We're just chatting learning about each other running our hands over each other. I start playing and getting him hard again. This time. I believe the whole hotel heard me. A number of orgasms. Wild fast fun.
On my knees, on my back, in my ass in my pussy, my legs wrapped tightly around his back.
He tells me to hang on, my arms wrapped around his neck my legs still wrapped around his back. He pulls us of the bed and now he's on his back I'm on top. Ahhh every girls dream right? Legs wrapped around a guy he's still deep inside you.
Thrusting myself deep on to him I cry with pleasurable pain as I jam him into as far as he go. Hitting bottom every time I thrust down on him.
I beg, will you please come inside me this time? I feel cum pulsing up and out. Mmmmm

Laying there he realizes he is hungry. It's 1:00pm. I haven't had anything to eat yet. He states his bagel from 6:00am is gone. I fear I won't be able to eat as my nerves are now, flipping from excited fun sex, the fear is gone.
We go into town kinda cool as we both drove an hour him from the south me from the north.
He recognised the area from years ago. It made for easy conversation.

Back that hotel I went to the rest room. When I came out he was on the phone with his wife.

We ended up laying together for a bit longer still fully clothed.
I don't know what made us decide to go for it again?
Maybe talking about the anal? Off the come the clothes. He's standing there with a raging hard on. Looks at me and points to the floor and says on you knees. I gladly obey.
I take him in my mouth hoping I might be able to take all of him. Again I can't. I gag and keep trying. He is thrusting hard face fucking me deep. I'm gagging but I don't want it to stop. My hands are clinched to his firm ass his hands in my hair.

"On the bed and on your knees" Again I gladly obey.
"Are you ready for me to fuck your ass?"
"Yes Please"
He starts slowly, Ouuuuch.
"Is that an ouch?'
"yes it's okay keeping going slowly"
Once he was in there it was great.
Took a bit to take him all but he knew when it was safe to start thrusting hard and fast in me.
I was so amazed at how wonderful he felt in me thrusting so hard and fast.
He told me to lay and spread my legs. I don't know how many orgasms he gave me but they kept coming harder and faster. When he came, all I could say was "THAT WAS AMAZING!"
Again I was breathless.

I loved how he gave me commands on your knees, on your back, suck my cock. I obeyed with pleasure.

The next day I was so exhausted. I tried to blame every muscle ache on him but he wouldn't take credit. I guess part of it could have been the work out a few hours before we I came to meet him.

It was an amazing experience. I thanked him, I emailed his beautiful wife the very next day and thanked her for letting her husband please me.

As I have said this has caused some tension between my lover and myself.
He called this am to tell me he won't be hooking up with his ex lover tomorrow as planned.
he told her there would be no hook ups. He had decided against it.
As I told him I didn't know how I would feel. I couldn't give him an answer until after the fact.
I have not rights to you. I did it now you get your turn. As he wouldn't tell me not to do it. I couldn't tell him not to do it.
One thing he has asked me over and over. "Is the benefit worth the risk?"
He decided not knowing how I would feel wasn't worth the risk.
He didn't want to hurt me.
I will do my best to never hurt him again either.
If the chance to play does come along again.
I will only accept if he can be part of it.
I'm thankful for the experience.
I don't regret it.
But it's not worth risk of hurting him or losing him.
I believe this has only made us stronger.

Tragic News

Since I had my hook up things have not been the best between my lover and I.

I have been having a real issue with him having his hook.
The reason being-My hook up was with a swinger.
We didn't plan a second fuck date.
We really haven't talked much since it happened.
Will it again I don't know?

My lover is hooking up with an ex lover.
He tells me it may happen more then just this one time.
They have a past and that bugs me.

Well any way I told him today I needed some space. I didn't want to talk to him until he at least got through his sex date. It was going to happen this coming Wednesday.
I wouldn't have a chance to talk to him again until after the holiday. Monday would be the soonest. I told him I would have to wait and see how I was feeling come Monday.
I didn't want to talk if I was still feeling a bit off about it. For fear of saying things I don't want to say.

Well my phone rings a bit ago. It's him? Why is he calling?
He just received some tragic news.
His best friends son was hit by a train and killed. 20 years old.
His friend lives in Chicago, they grew up together there.
Can I tell you how much I hate myself for being so selfish!

This all seems so small in the big picture. I need to stop......

Hooking up

I did something I have never done in my life!
I hooked up with someone I have never met in person.
We have talked many many times. On the phone and on line.
I had a great time. It was nothing like I expected it to be.
He was such a perfect gentleman.
I pictured going into the room and having my our clothes ripped off and throwing ourselves on the bed. And going at it for hours.
It wasn't like that at all, he knew how nervous I was as I was shaking so badly.
He gave me a gentle kiss and I felt all my fear melt away.
Yeah there was wild sex, gentle sex, all kinds.
It was a great experience.

But I must say there were some hardships getting to this point.
I have a hubby who knows nothing of my affairs.
I love him very much. I would never want to hurt him.
I have a boyfriend-Who knows everything. I have not lied to him.
I hate having to always tell him the truth but I won't keep it from him.
So yes my guilt was doubled.

The problem is now it's his turn.
It started out with him "getting me at back" He was jabbing me pretty bad.
As he wasn't happy about my hooking up.
Now it's more of a "I have set up my sex date and I have to see it through. "
The problem being he has been with her before.
I was with someone completely new.
So of course my way of thinking is he has feelings for her.
I don't think his will be a one time deal as mine was.

I hope that if anything this makes our relationship stronger, as he said maybe
we can both bring something from our individual experiences back to each other.
I told him he is the best I have ever had and I don't want to lose him.
I hope I can get through his hook up as well as he did with mine.
Once we both get past the jabbing and trying to hurt each other.

Choices we make.....

Aren't always good for all.
Being truthful,

Telling the truth isn't always the way to go but I promised him I would never lie to him.
Now I wish I had. I think,,,,Or would have kept his secret from me?
He's hooking up with an old fling. Is he doing it to hurt me. Cause I have hurt him?
Dunno. Can't think about that right now.
I think I need a break from him anyway.

Talking about getting a kiss. A simple kiss from the Marine.
Not that it's going to go any further than that.
As he has today off to go hook up with his lover.
He teases the hell out of me. And I allow it. Vent about it here.
I know some bloggers are bugged by this.
I want to say I'm sorry, I have not made any promises to be a good girl.

Red sky at night....Friday fill ins

Sailors delight....The sky was so pretty last night.
I wanted to take a picture.
But I was going 70 mph down the high way. rushing around to go to my daughters and her boyfriends for dinner.
Yup my daddy was a sailor.


1. The last band I saw live was _Lynard Skynard_. Yeah yeah I know.....Say what you must.
(-:

2. What I look forward to most on Thanksgiving is _Family! I love being with my family, brothers, sister, my mom some of our kids_. (if you don't celebrate thanksgiving, insert your favorite holiday)

3. My Christmas/holiday shopping is ___Almost done! ___.

4. Thoughts of_sex,,,, hooking up with someone new __ fill my head.

5. I wish I could wear ___thongs and feel good_.

6. Bagpipes ___play the most beautiful sweet music___.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to _putting a turkey in the oven at midnight and going to bed, tomorrow my plans include _baking pies for the church dinner____ and Sunday, I want to _relax! May do more baking as I promised a fellow employee I would_!

Meeting/I got a KISS!!!

Huh? Oh no not from the client I spoke of yesterday. She disappeared very quickly. Didn't see what way she ran........Nope. Gone? It was from the Marine!
Yeah he had me follow him to a quiet room and pulled me in for a nice warm kiss.
Oh what a nice kiss it was.
The little tease.
Then I went off to lunch with on of the other clients who was part of the meeting.
All and all it turned out nicely.

Is she being coy? Sending little hints?

Got a meeting tomorrow with one of the groups I rent to.
They are not happy. They don't feel the maintenance is getting done on the rentals in a timely manner.
I'm not giving them what they want/need when they want it....(can't give them what I don't have)
Well, funny thing. There is a new person who just recently got pushed into this job doing their requests for them.
I talked about her a while ago in my blog. She mention(jokingly I think??) about liking to get spanked...
So anyway she called me this am. She said something about our meeting we're all having.
So I asked is this going to be a pissing match? She said yes I believe so.
She commented that she thinks it's crap and we need to sit next to each other and hold hands as she and I both don't want to be in the middle of this mess.
Hmmm she and I next to each other handing hands under the table.....
Is she being coy? Sending little hints?

Hellooo,,,,

Just wanted to stop by and say hello.
Been buried in work.
Hoping I climb out soon and do some proper hellos to ya all.

TMI Tuesday #209

1. Which ONE do you wish you had more of in bed... romance, experimentation or foreplay?
Romance anything at all would be great.

2. What is your worst habit?
Using the F word way too much.

3. Do you take compliments well?
Hell no! I'm working on this I try to just say "thank you"

4. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
Hmmm now tha is a good question. Not a lot of thinking about the past,,, present some future Hmmm not really...

5. Do you feel everyone has a soulmate?
I do.
I thought and still kinda believe, I found my soulmate just not going as well as I thought it should. Was hoping for more in some areas but other areas are great so I guess it's the good with the bad right?

Bonus (as in optional): "Where Would You Wish To Wake Up?"
That's a really good question??? I kinda like the bed I wake up in every morning,,,,
But lets see.....I don't have a lot of dream places I want to go.....
I wanta wake in Heaven. I fear I'm going to HELL though....(-'

An Affair?

Yes, I write a number of times about this.
Some may be true some are not.
I ask myself so many times. As I was once asked. "Is the risk worth the benefit?"
The answer usually comes back "yes"
Do I like that if and when the chance comes around to get sex with someone other than hubs.
Hell yeah I love it!
Do I hate myself after the fact yes. The guilt kills me.
Will I keep taking that risk? Sad to say yeah...When opportunity knocks I will usually answer.
I also ask myself, the big what if? What if hubs finds out?
Would I blame him? Would I spit the words in his face-"IF YOU WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME!!!"
Or would I hang my head and say "I love and need sex, lots of it, I'm sick I can't help it....."
Would I spill my guts and tell all? Would I stay with him and try to work it out? Would I do as I have always done and leave?
Would I deny it? "No! I don't know where you got your info but it's a lie!"
Will I continue until than being the naughty little slut I am? yeah.....

TMI Tuesday #208 (Happy 4 years!!)

TMI Tuesday #208 (Happy 4 years!!)

Like every anniversary show, we have clips of popular or thought provoking questions from the past.

1. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your life?

7, I know if should be higher. But there's things I want and need I don't' yet have.

1a. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your sex life?

7, for the same reason as 1.

2. What is the easiest way for you to reach orgasm?

Tongue

3. what are 3 inevitable things about you?

Hmmm, I will flirt with someone today.

I will get a text, kids, bloggers, joke from a friend. At least one.

I will have salad for lunch. (Camping food gets the best of me every time)

4. What is your favorite sexual position? (yes you have to narrow it to one)


I would have to say woman on top. I like having the control.

And my tits in his face.

4a. What is you least favorite sexual position?


Is there such a thing?

5. Favorite body part/parts of the opposite (or same) sex?


Ass I love a great ass, the Marine has a great ass. Love eyes too.

6. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.]


Have sex with someone else.

7. When you have a "toe-curling" orgasm, do your does curl up, or down?


Down as they are trying to grab the sheets the same way my fingers are curling around them.

8. Name three words that:

a) get you excited

Fuck me hard

b) make you squirm

suck my cock

c) make you laugh

You are beautiful



Bonus (as in optional): What is you most embarrassing sexual moment?

Honestly!?! I have to say I squirted once in my life. The sad thing is that I was pretty new to WILD sex he was even newer to sex- I thought I peed ?!?!?

Hmmm is there a chance?

Ok this was a bit surprising?!?!?!?

I have a new client that was moved from one office to another here on campus-with the lay offs she was told you do this job or don't have one. Of course she said ok.
She and I never worked closely together. But now we are on the phone at least 10 times a day. Which is normal, she was moved into the busiest dept for needing rentals from me.

We have grown close pretty quickly. She is very easy to talk to. We talk and joke daily.

Well today she called and said she failed to talk to me yesterday about a cancellation for today.
The one training her told her "Spin will not let you keep getting away with canceling same day reservations." (Policy states 24 hour notice.)
So I told her Go ahead and send me an email using the rain as an excuse. But, if it happens again I will have to spank your hand.
Her reply was "Well I might like it!"
Took me by surprise,,,,,,I don't even remember how I responded? She quickly recovered and said "Well that's what I tell my boyfriend."
She is a year older than me. I wonder is she also curious about women?

Watercolors

Hey go check out http://dropthejeans.blogspot.com/ I'm out there along with a few others you might visit. Pretty cool.

A BIG thanks to Levi!

I love it!

Frustrated

Yeah I'm frustrated.

Bad enough I'm sexually frustrated.

But hubs decided last night would be a good time to have some fun.

What's he do waits until I'm half asleep. Than starts playing. AFTER his TV show is over.

Nope at that point I didn't want to play on another 3day headache, stressed and tired.

Yeah yeah I will never be able to complain about this again I know.

But you know what? I take my shower at 7am. It's more than 12 hours later. Sure I would love for you to go down on me. But not without me washing first.

What upsets me is that he could have communicated with me.

Simple really! "Hey baby I'm horny tonight why don't you clean that pussy you have been sitting on all day before you come bed?"

Rather than wait until I'm curled under the blankets in dream land and wake me by rubbing my nipple.

Yes I should have been more than happy to jump up at 10:30 pm and go wash and come back and spread my legs.

I'm up every day at 5am at the gym at 6am working out for an hour.

My job in now NON-STOP. I was tired. Why not skip the tv and jump me at 9pm?

We will be mariied for 8 years the end of next month.

I have told him a number of times "TALK TO ME"

Don't get me work I love him dearly. But he needs to communicate with me.
There was no signs at all before bed what he was thinking......

Sorry about venting. Wish I had more time I want to come visit you all.

TMI Tuesday #205

1. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
depeche mode

2. You seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
Clothes! Shoes! I love shoes! Maybe some new workout cloths they have a great tank at Kohl's.


3. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
Mid 1800's Love the west. I believe I would want to be an Indian.

4. What is your favorite curse word?
The F word I try to not use it. But do too much!


5. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Not so sure he's the lucky one?? Vin Diesel Damn he is beautiful!

Bonus (as in optional):You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be? To be invisible~all those times I say oh I wish I could be a fly on the wall.....

trapped.. in bondage

Even wonder what it would be like?

We met on line. We talked for over 6 months before deciding to meet in person.
He gave me directions to a little cafe just outside of town.
I knew who I was looking for as we had exchanged pictures.
He had already ordered drinks for us both.
I dressed as he requested. Black short skirt, black heels, he let me choose my top so I decided a loose front button silk blouse, no panties or bra.
As I walk to sit with him I could feel my erect nipples swaying against the thin fabric.
The smile on his face tells me he approves of the outfit.
I start to slide into the booth across from him. He slides out and tells me to get in beside him. I obey.
He lays his hand on my thigh and asks if I had any trouble finding the place. I tell him his directions were perfect.
We order our dinner. I'm not feeling much like eating as I know we will soon be headed to the hotel room he has reserved for us.
Upon leaving the cafe in the parking lot he runs his hand over my ass. Grins and says "good girl".
I follow him to the hotel. He slips his hand around my waist. leans close to my hear and states remember the safe word. "Yes Sir" I reply.
Inside he closes the door. turns to me and the butterflies start to flutter even more then when I first made eye contact with him at the cafe.
He moves in close, his lips brush my as he starts to unbutton my blouse.
My mind is racing. I close my eyes. I feel his hand on my breast then his lips.
He motions for me to go to the bed. "sit and take off you skirt. Leave your heels on.
I see a pile of clothes that look like a bed sheet that has been ripped into strips.
Hmmmm I think to myself.
Okay he says lay down on your belly. Again I obey, Yes Sir.
First he blindfolds me. I wonder what have I done??? Should I use the safe word? Just to test him? No. I don't want to upset him...
I feel him tying my ankles then pulling them up to my back and he tells me to put my hand behind my back, I do so.
Once I'm tied. I don't hear anything my heart is pounding. What have I done???
I hear water running in the bath. The shower comes on. Soon I hear him turn off the water and come back out.
He asks how I'm doing.
I say ok.....
I feel him sit next to me on the bed. He runs his finger over my lips. puts his finger in my mouth and wets my lips. He's moving on the bed again. I feel his cock pressing against my lips now. I open my mouth and welcome him.
Slowly stroking me in and out.
I feel my pussy getting wet. I want to grab him and pull him deeper into my mouth.
I try to wiggle free from my bondage. "Easy" he moans "you don't need your hands. Just suck me the way you are."
I moan and push my face closer he responds by thrusting deeper into my throat.
I feel his fingers finding my wetness. He starts rubbing my clit and driving fingers into my wet pussy.
I'm squirming and moaning as he thrust he cock deeper into my mouth and his fingers into my pussy. I'm very wet. I want to come but know I have to want for him to tell me I can. I taste his precum he is so close to coming will he let me come too?
Suddenly I feel the hot gush in my mouth. He groans out a come for me now!
I relax and let my whole body shudder with an orgasm longer and harder than I have ever experienced.

What am I doing?

Why can't I be happily married?

I love my husband.

I feel I can't be truthful with him.

I don't have a good sex life.

We have good sex when we have sex.

I like sex I want sex.

I will try to go find it.

I hate that I have secrets.

I fear I will get caught.

I worry hub will one day find out.

I don't ever want to hurt him.

I think about closing my blog.

I email with some of you and wonder what you "really" thing of me?

I like being a little slut.

I like to flirt.

I like attention.

I used to be very shy.

I never wanted to be the center of attention.

Now I want it all, all the attention I can get.

When is this all going to caught up to me and bite me in the ass?

Fantasises

Aren't fantasises a funny thing?
I have a story first....
We met at my work pretty risky as people do come and go on the weekends.
We went to my office. He started by taking off my shirt and bra. Pinched my nipples and started sucking them.
I'm wet instantly. He's sitting in my chair. He turns me to the bay window takes down my jeans and motions for my to get up on the bay cell. I do so and spread my legs. He licks and sucks my clit until I have a hot orgasm which doesn't take very long. I need to taste him. I get down on my knees and start sucking him. Bringing my mouth down on his hard cock. Oh I love how he tastes. He now seats me in my chair and slides his hard into my very wet pussy. He's very large! Pumping me hard and fast hitting bottom and making my cry out with pleasurable pain. I have another orgasm. This in turn making him slow as he's not ready to do the same.
He now takes his place back in the chair and I back to him and slide my pussy over his hard cock again. I'm now in control I ride him hard and again start to have an orgasm and he stops me. Even though I'm no longer pumping my wet pussy down on his cock the orgasm still comes for me.
Now he has me on my desk facing him again. Pinching my nipples and sucking them. I return the favor to his nipples, sucking and nibbling. He's says get yourself off as I watch you. Rubbing my finger over my clit, bringing it to my mouth, then back to my clit until I cum. The whole time he is stroking himself. He brings himself out of his chair and slides his hard shaft in my wet pussy. Now thrusting hard into my pussy. Having to slow or stop at times.
He decides he can't take any more and asks if he can cum on my face. I nod and get on my knees in front of him with mouth open and ready. Eyes are closed, I feel his hot cum hit my forehead then my cheek and mouth and lip. When I hear him stop groaning with pleasure. I lick the cum off my face I can reach with my tongue.
I walked around my office naked for a minute or so. Washed my face got dressed and walked him to his car.I may have been seen giving him a last kiss. Not sure?

So, I have a question. How is it I can fantasize like this and then watch the movie "Catch and Release" and want the beautiful slow love making they did in that movie? I'm weird. I want it all and both ways.

Why???

I dreamt about Tall Man Molly last night. It's been over a year he's been gone. I try so hard to forget him. But there are so many reminders where ever I go. I miss him.

I told the Marine I'm done playing his game. Well I sent it in an email on Wednesday. He never responded so I'm guessing that means he's ok with it.

Off to my meeting, then the rest of the day is mine to do as I please.
I hope you all have a great Labor day weekend.
I will be thinking of you as I sit next to a camp fire and toast marshmallows.

HUMP DAY!

Wait?!?!?! I have Friday off so what does that make today for me?
I'm going camping!!!!
I'm going camping!!!!
Thank goodness I have Friday off and I'm camping.
Cause am going to tell you something you probably don't care to hear.
Man bitch-Nosey-the names I remember I gave him in early grips.
Well one of his fellow employees (not me) decided it was time to go to HR about him.
He mentioned that I and others in the office feel the same.
He came back from his meeting stating we need to go and have a meeting also.
Well I emailed and they said no you don't "have to". The pier pressure was too great from the other employee. So I decided to make an appointment. Did this last week.
Funny thing, things have been going pretty well, him leaving me alone and all.
Yeah up until this week. Monday he decided to blow up at my boss and demanded she call a meeting between her, him and myself. For his childish acts. He overheard a conversation between myself and my maintenance man-I stated I may not have a van for his testing on Wed. Rather than come to me he went to her.... See we have to work closely together the only conversation between us is supposed to be work. I would have told him as soon as I knew myself. He could have come to me and asked. But I decided he wanted to put her in the middle I would leave her there. She messed up the info and gave it to him wrong. Not wise thinking from me. I should have been the adult in the situation and went directly to him.
Over an hour listening to him cry and whine about what a good person he is and why does everyone hate me???? Why do they all isolate me??? He believes (in his little mind)I have the power to make everyone in here hate him. Because I was the first one he verbally attached months ago, they all witnessed this. Why would they want to talk to him?????
Done! Thanks.
Wish me luck at my HR meeting on Friday!

The man in the hall

I was trotting up the stairs one day last week.

I look up and there's a guy standing and waiting to come down.

I'm munching on something as I head up the stairs he too is munching.

Looks at me and smiles, says "hmmmm guess it's its that time of day huh?"

I smile back, yup, blush......

I think to myself, how come I never noticed him before now?

Today (Monday) I come out of the bathroom. And who is just walking away from the

vending machine? Him!

He smiles and goes on down the hall.

Who is he????

Had to talk to my Marine today. Was totally professional with him.
I hope I make him wonder when I can tell he just wants to try and make my panties wet and he doesn't know if he did or not.....

Oh My!

Looks like my time of being bored is OVER. I have been busy since I walked though the door. First thing I see is a note from my maintenance man stating that one of my sprinters will be in service for another 2 weeks. Great I had it booked the rest of the month starting tomorrow.
Ever seen these Dodge Sprinters? I hate the damn things.
My clients love them.
But every time I turn another around one is broke down.
We don't have a service place local. So any warranty work has to go over an hour away.
Thank goodness most of them are not under warranty any more.
Got called into the bosses office behind closed doors because of these things for over an hour to listen to man bitch cry and boo who. As I took his away from him.
Turned into a spitting match.
Unreal!
Thought about taking pics on Sunday as I had the house to myself.
But didn't feel I would be able to go to church and hold my head high if I did.
I think I will take a whole week and wear jeans, different ones every day and take a pic each day and post it.
Call it weeks worth of jeans or something.

AAAAGGGGHHHH

Maybe the grass is greener on the other side of the fence???
Today has been the day from HELL!!!
So ready to walk! But I love my job most days. Just not today!
Thanks just had to get that of my chest.
Back to my 30 requests that just keep building.....Or should I try to get the last 15 minutes of my hour lunch I haven't had yet......I know no ones fault but my own.
Have a great day.

TMI-Tuesday

Just cause I have nothing.....

1. Do you have "your" side of the bed? Which side?
Yup the left side-sleep on my left side too.

2. How old is your pillow and what condition is it in?
It's actually just a few months old. But already getting too flat for me.

3. What is your favorite position to sleep in?
Left side with my right hand between my legs sharing the space with a pillow.
Helps with the lower back pain-Although now that I'm doing spinning regularly again that really helps!

4. How often do you change your sheets?
Every weekend. Hubs sweats yucky!
Hang them on the outdoor line.
Oh so fresh and clean smelling.

5. What helps you fall asleep when insomnia strikes?
Nothing. Well I suppose I could roll over and wake him with a BJ.

6. Does sex make you sleepy or energized?
Energized usually, after about the third O I'm ready to go!

7. What is the minimum amount of sleep that you need to be functional the next day.
I need at least 8 hours! Usually in bed by 9pm. Up at 5am.

Bonus (as in optional):Describe your most vivid dream.
This is weird?!?!? I keep have this reoccurring dream...
Usually it's night mares but this one keeps coming back.
Hub and I are buying this really old run down house. I mean nasty!
It's like two apartments. All on one floor.
We're walking through it and we have to live in it as we fix it up.
We plan to have it still in apartments but needs lots of work first.
There is still furniture in it. They used a sun porch as a bedroom.
I dream allot about purchasing houses lately. Don't get it?

Lifes a bitch!

ON Saturday Morning hub just came and got me at the gas pump where the starter decided to go in the jeep.
He towed me back to the house with a chain. Scared the crap out of me! He moved pretty quickly. I kept slamming the brakes for fear of ramming his truck. By the time we took the short trip from the gas station up the hill to the house I was in uncontrollable tears.
Came in to balance the check book and pay the bills. I have $29.23 left.
Yippee lucky me!
How can I afford a starter? I have the jeep a 2000 with 87000 and my 1995 Ford Escort with 166000 miles on it. How much longer will that go?

Got caught!

How stupid of me! I know what time hubs gets home!
I was on my phone chatting anyway with someone Who hub knows NOTHING about. MY little on-line world of people. One who has my cell number....
Of all the places to ber, in the back room.
Putting laundry in the washer and there he is!
At the door. I know he saw the look of shock on my face.
I finish putting the cloths in the washer.
Say good bye. Close the phone and go about my business.
I go into the kitchen leaving the phone on the dryer as if that's going help matters.
He looks at me and says who was that, M? (my daughter)
He gives me an out!
Yeah I say, she was asking if I got the college loan papers done.
I don't think he believed me......I can't lie worth a damn.
I started venting about work about how nasty & mean some people can be.
It hurt but I won't go into it here....

My Fantasy

Frustrated that he has not spoke to me in days. I flume as I walk to my private little bathroom where I know I can be alone to think, breath, readjust. I know I need to get my mind back to work. Not this questioning, why? why? why? He's not worth it I try to keep telling myself. Of course the little piece of my brain that is so is hot for him won't let it go.
I sit there with my panties down. Thinking how much cooler I already feel. Reaching down I know I'm going to feel the heat of being in the office with AC and the thoughts of him have made me moist.
I start rubbing my clit, softly at first. Still frustrated the rubbing getting much rougher what started out as one finger ends up being four fingers. Diving deep into my now very wet hot pussy.
Biting my lip as a orgasm shutters through my body. I relax leaving my fingers deep inside me.
Feeling the wetness dripping down them.
I ponder if this is enough to clear my mind and decide "no" one more won't hurt. Thrusting my fingers deeper and harder this time into my already wet hot pussy. I bring my fingers to my mouth and taste my sweetness. Pumping myself again the second comes much quicker than the first.
I moan aloud and don't even care if I was heard.
I flush and wash my hands. Just in case someone is out there. I want to make it look like I was just going pee. grin
As I shut off the light and slowly open the door, someone grabs me and pushes me back into the bathroom and shuts the door.
Being dark I have not a clue who it is.
I'm pushed up against the wall facing it. He has my hands clamped together and held over my head.
Reaching up under my skirt he warns me to not make a noise. I think it's him? His voice sounds husky and full of lust.
He asks what was that moaning I heard in here?
I feel his fingers sliding my undies to one side. As he fills my pussy with his fingers now.
Still bugged I try to break free of his grip to no avail. Instead I start to spread my legs and allow him in.
Once he has me moaning he frees my hands.
I turn to meet his lips in a warm desirable kiss.
I slide to my knees. Fumbling with his belt. It's been so long all the teasing. I'm finally going to taste him.
Dropping his pants I wrap my lips around his hard cock. He thrusts it deep into my throat. I think to myself, Oh this is going to be over quickly as I feel him grower harder. First time usually is. I taste the first hint of cum, he slows. Oh no! I'm having this now! I grab those firm ass cheeks and pull him close and stroke my lips over him until I feel him swell and his cum pulsing as it gushes into my mouth. Holding him there until I know he has finished completely. Slowly bringing my lips over the tip and lick the remains. He jerks and moans. I look up smile and say "see told you I never lose a drop. Give him a soft kiss as he pulls his jeans back up and I say "Thank you".

I wonder?

I wondered yesterday what would happen if I were to ever get caught?

I wonder what it would be like to have a spouse who knows what I do?

I wonder if he would be upset or join in?

I wonder if anyone out there knows me that reads my blog?

I wonder if Tall Man Molly ever reads me?

I had a long over due conversation with a friend last night.

I wonder what the other side of the story was that I didn't give him a chance to tell me?

I knew it would happen. I'm glad it did.

I wonder if he will tell me our friendship is over once he has time to speak to his girlfriend and more time to think about it.

Wish he would sometimes.

We'll see.......

Friday fill in #136

And...here we go!

1. Pork ribs is my favorite summertime BBQ.

2. My favorite John Hughes movies is Breakfast club.

3. My bubby is something I love to touch.

4. The full moon is beautiful.

5. Wish I was home right now.

6. When daylight fades so do I.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to making sausage bread for hubs guys at work, tomorrow my plans include _sun bathing, laundry& paying bills and Sunday, I want to bake some apple pies and go to the races!

Yes and No ONLY

I found this on Hubmans Blog and decided to steel it.

1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages or comments you and asks.

Now, here’s what you’re supposed to do. . . Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, and type in your answers

Been arrested? No
Kissed someone you didn’t like? YES
Slept in until 5 PM? No
Ran a red light? YES
Been suspended from school? No
Experienced love at first sight? Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? yes
Been fired from a job? no
Fired somebody? YES
Sang karaoke? No
Pointed a gun at someone? no
Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? YES
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? YES
Kissed in the rain? YES
Had a close brush with death (your own)? no
Seen someone die? YES
Played spin-the-bottle? YES
Smoked a cigar? No
Sat on a rooftop? YES
Smuggled something into another country? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
Broken a bone? no
Skipped school? YES
Eaten a bug? YES
Sleepwalked? No
Walked a moonlit beach? YES
Rode a motorcycle? YES
Dumped someone? YES
Lied to avoid a ticket? YES
Ridden in a helicopter? YES
Shaved your head? No
Made your boyfriend/girlfriend cry? YES
Eaten snake? No
Marched/Protested? No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? No
Puked on amusement ride? No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? No
Been in a band? No
Been on TV? no
Shot a gun? YES
Skinny-dipped? yes
Gave someone stitches? no
Ridden a surfboard? No
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? YES
Had surgery? YES
Streaked? No
Taken by ambulance to hospital? No
Passed out when not drinking? No
Peed on a bush? no
Donated Blood? YES
Grabbed electric fence? YES
Eaten alligator meat? No
Killed an animal when not hunting? YES
Peed your pants in public? No
Snuck into a movie without paying? No
Written graffiti? No
Still love someone you shouldn’t? yes
Been in handcuffs? No

Believe in love? YES
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? YES

Ahhh that was fun. Try it out!

TMI Tuesday #197 - Nonsexual Edition

1. The three words that best describe you are flirty, _fun, and outgoing.

2. The three words that best describe your life are calm, quiet, and routine.

3. Your three guilty pleasures are _chocolate, pasta , and _ice cream.

4. The three places you would like to visit before you die are _Paris, Hawaii again, and _Just the whole US.

5. The three things you would like to do before you die are _find real happiness, Win Megabucks, and see my kids financially secure.

Work talk-funny stuff!?!?!

So my maintenance man brings me my sheet on the rentals.
It states mileage, fuel level and condition it was left.
Well I have some students who rent two of my minivans weekly and bring them back on the weekends so I can use for other renters.
I asked that they make sure they are clean and refueled (I supply the gas card to them) when they return them.
My list this am stated one had a 1/4 tank and both were DIRTY. A bottle with tobacco spit in it was left behind.
I emailed the coach to let him know this can't happen.(lucky they were not rented out this weekend)
The students said oh no we left them tidy.
Well the students picked up their vans again this afternoon. Coach calls me to tell me that vans were clean. I don't know if my guy had time to clean or not and he had already left for the day.
The coach has decided that his students must have left the vans unlocked, then someone must have decided to use the vans in the parking lot as a place to party and left them trashed!
Are you serious?!?!?!

Just a story for fun

Life is Blah. I post my damn gardens.
So I have decided today to go to fantasy land after reading Hubman I have been inspired. Although he has a better chance of his coming true!

He needed to come to the office so I could show him how to run the program.
Oh that smile melts me every time.
I have him sit in my chair and instruct him to do as I ask. Click this, now that, you need to put in the info here and so on.
I say, I need you to learn this so you won't need me each time.
Thought to self, I hope you don't learn it easily.
I kneel next to him. We're not alone in the office. But pretty well hidden behind my partition.
I'm trying to show him how to get to the program. He leans over and whispers in my ear.
Can I please touch you. I grin, please do! He slowly runs his hand over my breast. Resting his fingers on my erect nipple and pinching it slightly.
I keep talking and showing him the steps he needs to take.
Suddenly I feel a moan come up in my throat. I cover my mouth with my hand.
He grins and stops.
I rest my hand on his leg as I talk to him.
I'm still on my knees. I can see that just the thought of my mouth taking all of him is getting him aroused. He slides my hand to him and I get a hand full him becoming hard.
My fellow employee leaves. I look at the clock and realize it's her lunch hour. We are alone, behind a locked door........
He quickly pulls me to my feet and flips my skirt above my hips.
Pulling my panties down to my knees.
I feel his fingers slide into me gently at first than harder and faster.
I'm thrusting my hips to him. I moan with an orgasm.
I hear the zipper of his jeans. I turn and eagerly take him in my mouth. His hands on my head, fingers tangling in my hair thrusting hard and fast. Trying to muffle his own moan as he fills my mouth with his hot gush.
Mmmm pulling up my panties I turn and he says.
I don't think I understand this program I will need to come back a few times for you help.
Please do I say as he walks out, and turns and gives that smile.

Pushing them away

I don't know why but I have decided today to push all the "flirts" away.
Could be the email conversation I had with "new guy" really not so new.
The story started out as just that a story, a fairly tail.
I realized as I wrote it was about someone. He started here over a year ago.
What happened between us NOTHING.
He led me on for a very long time. And just stopped dropping by one day.
The last month or so I started hearing some pretty ugly rumors about him.
Decided to confront him. He left his wife for another girl (reconnected when he moved back to the area)
But I also heard he was banging someone within the college.
He begged me to believe him about that not being true.
I do-as he told me he did in fact leave the wife. Gave details as to why-and yes he does or did have a girlfriend. Don't really know what the case may be there now?
Another guy (been coming in for years)who loves to flirt with me came in last week and decided to flirt with my fellow employee so I decided to back off and let him have his fun. Told him to not let me stand in his way. He's freaking out. But, but,,,,,,What ever!
Well he told me about yet another one who is flirty with me. I guess this one has girls all over campus.
Go for it! I confronted him today too. "How's Kelly" I ask.
Hmmm he stopped talking to me. Good.
I have decided life is better not talking to any of these guys.
I just don't want to play their childish games. Honestly I guess I'm not better.
I flirt cause I like their attention.
I'm turning over leaf.

The fears of getting caught.......

......Isn't as great as my argue to write.

It's the first time I have ever seen him. He's new to the area. Being brought around to be introduced to all the different depts he will be in touch with.

The minute our hands touched in a greeting "nice to meet you" the sparks flew.

His green eyes looked they were crackling flames.

Wow! I didn't expect this??

The rest of the day I can't get him off my mind.

What was that tingle he sent through my veins?

Why did that look into his eyes make me shiver?

The only question was when would I see him again?

Why I'm I thinking like this. It was probably just me feeling something.

I the day ended I went home and tried to sleep but his eyes kept coming back into my head.

I decided I wouldn't get any work done if I allowed this to keep me distracted.

I settled in got right to answering emails and confirming requests for rentals.

Around 10am there is a knock at the door. Drawn from my deep concentration I look up to see who was let in.

I feel my face flush red, as he smiles at me.

How are you he asks? Feeling totally knocked off guard I managed to squeak out a "I'm fine thank you and you?"

"Better now" he says with a this smile that was all for me!!!!

Ok so what I thought was a pipe dream yesterday wasn't.

My heart is now pounding out of my chest.

Where is this going to go?

TMI Tuesday #193 (rebroadcast)

1. How many speeding tickets have you had? Accidents?

Never got a speeding ticket. One accident. had the car for less than a month. It was July and the windows steamed up. Looked down to find the defrost. Next thing I know telephone pole was scraping along the side of my car.

2. Boxers, briefs or commando?

None of the the above. I opt for boy shorts with lace around the legs.

3. Have you ever had sex in your office or your place of employment?

Oh yeah! More than once!

4. Do you or your so own a motorcycle? Do you ever ride one? Do you wear a helmet when you ride?

No don't have one. Would ride yes. Would most definitely wear a helmet.

5. Ever been skinny dipping?

Yup I was in high school. With my sister and a bunch of her friends. Co-ed. She was such a bad influence on me.

Bonus: Ever been arrested? Turned someone in/had someone arrested?

Nope

Spinning again!

I got back into my spinning class this am after taking months off due to nerve damage in my shoulder.
First of all -Yippee.
Secondly-damn my inner thighs hurt already.
That's not a complaint I love the feel of hard worked muscles.

Run Away!

If were that I easy I would.
I'm not running this time.
I have spent too much of my time getting tired of dealing with things and running.
Jobs & marriages.
Yes I do bitch about this little bastard! BUT he isn't FUCKING pushing me out of a job I have love and have been doing for 7 years. He has been there for less an 2 years.
I'm not the only one that he has pissed off.
Yes I have it worst. Cause I'm little miss friendly and invite everyone into my world with open arms.
Well the caution light is now flashing! SLOW down. Almost at a stop with everyone.
I know you people don't really know me. I have times I need to vent. This is what I'm doing.
Things were good for about 2 weeks. He stayed on his side of the office I stayed on my,
Until this last situation. The only thing this did was make the people who did talk to him feel the stabs in the back.
He made his bed. It won't be long.
He told me he felt he was being driven out. This Weasel you have done all on your own.

WHAT TO HELL IS HE THINKING?!?!?!

DS was confronted by my supervisor 'cause she was told he was talked to by BB (big boss) her supervisor. I had my meeting-I was told DS would also be called in, behind closed doors as I was. She assumed the same happened with him. But that DS called the meeting....

Well keep in mind the DS and BB have children that are going to be marry.
Well BB told my super that he and DS had the talk. She confronted DS. Come to find out he saw him in the local drug store and cornered him.

Yeah nice I get pulled behind closed doors- they have a chat in the parking lot.
"Please understand DS Spin doesn't want you as a friend"

So DS starts all over AGAIN!
He thought I would give in and be "his friend"?!?!?
Asked for a hug and actually started coming at me with open arms????
Nothing has changed! If anything it's worse now! Get to hell away from me!
Yeah to say the least I'm PISSED!

Guys help me out?!?!??!

Maybe it's just these damn New Englanders-No offense Hubman. You're not included in this.
But it seems the guys I am around are,,,,,Hmmmm I don't know???
Playing games. I thought we women were the only ones to play games.
Maybe it's spring fever.
They are like wild animals and looking to Breed.
The mating game! That's it! It's such a rural.
I don't get it. It's starts with emails. Days later they may stop in to say hello.
Emails again about the conversation that went on when they stopped in.
They never really make any serious passes. Just testing the waters I guess.
The best part of all this. We will all be together on Friday at our big "ole company picnic.
Funny how you have the ones who will talk on email-but they won't say boo at the picnic.
Ha I love this place. Really I do. Cause I know their game....
Guess I just need to know why do they talk about what they like and then in the very next email "I'm a good boy now"
HUH?
Okay, that's fine with me. I'm being a good girl too. At least in the real world.
My blog world is a different story that they will never now about if I can help it.

STOP THE MADDNESS!

I have a dear dear friend who has tried so hard to help me.
It's hopeless.
He told me to put a rubber band on my wrist and each time I started or got involved in gossip to snap the rubber band. DAMN! I had one hell of a red wrist!
Even though I still deal with it and sometimes get involved. I'm so much more aware of it.
I want to run away!
I got in a HUGE fight with a fellow employee, because of it this am. He wanted to see if talking to me (about the other door) would get a reaction. Well it did!

All weekend with my family, the evenings with my hubby, come back to work and get it here too.

Is there any where at all that this shit does NOT happen?
I'm tired of it. I just don't want to be a part of it. But there is no reprieve.

Friday fill in's

#128
And...here we go!


1. I grew up thinking I would never grow old, ha jokes on me, surprise!

2. My yahoo mail was the last website I was at before coming here.

3. Why don't you just go back to your desk and leave me alone?

4. Having a glass of wine and sex helps me relax.

5. Thanks for the people in my life who stand by me no matter how bad it/I get.

6. Having someone beg you to be their friend and not taking no for an answer very off-putting.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a sunny beautiful weekend, tomorrow my plans include relaxing and maybe going to the races and Sunday, I want to be a good girl and go to church and then come home and watch a naughty movie!

Sorry not my best still stressing abit.

Life is funny?!?!?

One door closes and a door that closed months ago, reopens.
Within a 24 hour period.
Heart feels a tug from the closed door. But I won't try and push it open.
The other door that I haven't tried to push open.
Reopened all on it's own today, not one little nudge from me.
Will it stay open? Who knows?
Take what your given and enjoy it for the time you have it.
Life is too short not to.
Complete Surprise! heart went bang bang!
Smile spread across my face.
Life does go on........

Until I'm blue in the face!

I have told a fellow employee I will not be his friend.

I have gone over this many many times.

He came to me Friday and tried again.

Again we went over it and over it. Monday he came to me AGAIN!?!!?

Again I say work issues ONLY! He's very cleaver!

He finds things that are work related to find a way to talk to me. He came to me about a person who signed off on a driver test and asked if I knew who they were.

He usually emails me the mileage on rentals he uses for testing-today he has to come and asked if he could just me.

I have NEVER in my life had anyone EVER want to be part of my life as much as he

does!
He wants to do everything I do.
He joined my work out class-didn't last long thank goodness!
He took his father-in-law to my hairdresser!
He wants to starting going camping.
He wants to join WW-He weighs 138 lbs!!!!
I went to show my female fellow employee a dress in a catalog he ripped it from my hands before she had a chance to take it.

I know this all sounds catty but I am at my wits end!

It's getting scary! Restraining order?!?!?!

Friday fill in update...

Well I did sit on my porch and have my wine.

Made an awesome dinner of grilled chicken, tossed baby greens, grilled summer and zuke.

I didn't bark, bark, bark.

I didn't get much sun it was nice out but I was gladly helping the kids move 1.9 miles down the road.

I did go to church-back to the kids new place with lunch and help with cleaning, unpacking, painting. Yes, I was invited. She stopped by first thing and asked for her moms help. I stayed and helped out as much as I could.

I did bake but not until about 7pm.

I was actually pretty good. I only ate one fresh out of the oven chocolate chip cookie. YUMMY!

What a good idea

I stole this idea from Hubman.

Better than my whining. So two post today.

And...here we go!

1. I can't wait to get home.

2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been Salads, pasta, green leaf potato you name it.

3. When I get great sex I bark! bark! bark!

4. A nice long walk helps keep my ass in better shape.

5. I would love to hear some good news.

6. When all is said and done, things will get better.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner and sitting on my porch with a glass of wine, tomorrow my plans include working in my gardens and getting some sun and Sunday, I want to go to church and come and bake chocolate chip cookies.

Thanks to Hubman I'm glad I read your blog today!

Still looking....

I'm looking for my happy place.

I realized last night how I allow people to walk all over me.

I actually have a comment a blogger wrote on day I printed off and tacked to my partition as a reminder. Sits right in front of my face. It states "No-one else is living your life except you" Isn't that the greatest!?

I think I need to make it bigger. As I have not been following this.

I allow people to use me use me use me. My child is the best at this.

She knows right where that guilt button is and pushes it ALL the time.

As I told a very good companion last night. I have NO-ONE but me to blame.

I gave my 3 old twins everything they wanted when I left their father. I didn't want them to want for anything. And they didn't! What kinda mother leaves a child's daddy. Oh we had joint custody. They got to see him as much as me. But even before they knew what guilt was I taught them. "Oh your sad? You miss daddy. Let mommy fix that and buy you a toy."

In the shower this am at the gym. I'm thinking how am I going to deal with D (nosey) this am.
If he asks me how my WW meeting went. I will just say "Lets please keep our conversations to work and not my personal life. It's like he knows when to NOT speak to me.
He said NOTHING. Yes this good.

It's just another one of those things. When he does ask it will throw me off guard and I forget how to say it without sound harsh. Or fear of sounding harsh.

My parents raised me and my 4 siblings to speak when you're spoke to. Never talk back. And if you don't have anything good to say don't say it.
So I still keep my mouth shut to those who I have a difficult time with.
Better that way right?

I say this because I'm allowing him, D ruin my contentment.
I can't go on like this. How do I STOP!??!!?

TMI Tuesday #189 - Dating edition

1. What was the last movie you saw on a date?

Hmmm you mean before marriage? I don't recall?? But I do remember a guy taking me to a XXX movie. Used to have them right here in my town at Midnight. Young 19 y/r he was I think mid 20's never thought I be the same.

2. What was the last meal you had on a date?

I remember what desert was. Evil grin

3. When was the last time you made out in the car on a date? More?

It's was at the drive in movies! I was 17 he was 151/2.

4. Using a dating websites do you think you are more likely to find a "hook up" or a relationship?

I would have to say a hook up. Are any of them really looking for a "relationship"?

5. Do you have any special "first" date rituals? Flowers, certain restaurant, ect.

Nope can't say as I do. Just a date would be nice...... Been way too long. Hmmm nice dinner a movie,,,, ahhhh


BONUS QUESTION: Do you believe in sex on the first date? Can a relationship bloom if you have sex on the first date?Happy TMI!!

Yeah sure go for the sex it'll end up being the first and last date I believe. Why pay for any more dinners when you get what you want the first time.
That is unless you were amazing the first time. BUT who are we fooling we all know the first time you don't know what he likes. Chances are you're done.

Grab those little things!!!

Sitting at the light last night on my way home. On the cell chatting with my daughter about dinner. I look to the left lane and see the most beautiful big black lab in the back of this little blue car. I just gaze, thinking what a gorgeous dog. Suddenly I see a hand come up under the chin of the dog. I look to the front seat and see the driver looking at me and giving me a huge grin.

Of course I smile back and turn to watch the light. Still red crap! I can feel the flush on my cheeks. I look again and now there's a golden lab! He has 3 dogs! Yup still giving me that huge grin. I have to say it made me feel good.

Hub just told me a few nights ago, that he notices people looking at me. See I still see myself the 45 lbs heavier. He always tells me when we're out and about. "Hey that guy just checked out your ass."

I have to say these are the moments I need to remember. It makes me feel pretty good.


Funny thing I was reading blogs this am and http://rumblingsandbumblings.blogspot.com/ had a dream and she asks "Any dream analysis people out there??"

I had a couple of weird ones, BUT the one that really stands out for me.
These two guys come to us looking to get money to fund some guns. As there church is putting a wild game dinner and they need to go out and hunt the wild game. (This isn't even close to the work I do???)
But anyway to make a long dream short. They are leaving and Nosey jumps up and positions himself to be frisked?? So the guy is like ok?!?!?! And frisks him. Than my alarm went off.....

Home....

Just got home from a week of camping.
It was so enjoyable. I had my days to myself. Sure it rained 1/2 the time. But it was ok.
I ran, I read, I watched movies, I baked.
The best part, I had NO computer!
I didn't know what was going on at my job accept for a text or two filling me in.
I come home and decided to check my email-bad news! Nosey has decided to pull his resignation!
Boss wants to pull me for a private meeting. I think she thinks I will start looking.
I love my job I really do. I just can't stand my surroundings. I won't leave.
My fear is, she will tell me I have to befriend him. I sure as hell hope not. That won't be happening.
Why is it we can't come home and keep that happy relaxed fun feeling?
Why does reality have to slap you in the face?

I wonder?

When will I feel your arms around me?

Your warm breath on my neck,

as your soft lips brush across it

looking for my lips?

Wanta

I really really wanta write.
BUT it seems all I have right now is negative
There are some positives but,
I can't even seem to begin to know what they are....
I feel blinded by the sour things.
They are pulling me into a big black hole.

Mama always said,,,,,,

If you don't have anything good to say don't say anything.
So I guess I'll be quiet now. Cause all I wanta is cry and have a number of times.
Hopefully something good will come along real soon.
Until then................

Do you ever wonder??

All those who pass by and don't leave any comments.
Do you wonder what they think of you?
Do you wonder how those who do leave comments think you?
I have opened up a few times.
I have made on line friends.
I write and wonder if I pull them closer or push them away?
I just want to say thanks to you all.
For reading.
For leaving comments.
For sending me emails.
Being very kind.
A GREAT BIG THANK YOU!

Who am I??

That is a good question?

I honesty don't know?

I fear skin cancer I still tan in a tanning bed every spring.

I fear STD's but I didn't have safe sex when I was being naughty.

I fear being found out with my on line fun. Doesn't stop me.

I love the attention of men.

I get talked about and get mad.

I hate gossip! If you want to talk about me fine. BUT make sure you have the facts.

I flirt does this mean I ask for it??

I have more male friends than female.

Speaking for MYSELF only-I'm a bitch! I have days I don't speak to those around me.

I will hold a grudge. You bite me I bite back then withdrawal and won't speak to you.

I hate that my teeth have a small gap right in the front.

I do Weight Watchers. I fear I will gain the weight back.

I was told a couple of weeks ago I was a lot fatter than I said my weight was.

I lost 5lbs that week. Still losing this week. I don't lie about my weight. I will proudly tell anyone who ask.

I love knowing I could meet the goal of the national average.

I hate people thinking I'm FAT-I have a goal to get to the point I was when I was told I was TOO thin.

I fear going old and getting wrinkles.

I grew up on farms my whole child hood. I was not the popular girl in school.

I am now called one of the high maintenance girls in the locker room at the gym.

Nosey feels I'm the popular one here in the office and I control what everyone does.

When did this happen???

I have had affairs in the past.

I don't think I will ever be faithful. I want to be. The guilt kills me but doesn't stop me. I like the danger, the newness, the attention. I'm sure there is so much more that draws me to others.......

Work is not fun right now!

I come into a boss who is having problems with her 13 year old. She has decided school isn't her thing. So she hasn't gone pretty much the whole school year.
Been in the hospital to be checked out, came out a monster!

She broke down yesterday (boss) I think they heard her six doors down.
Her hubby lost his job. Yes it sucks!

I feel for her I really really do. But I don't want to hear about the whole day all day.

I have both my kids (21y/o-twins) moved back home and the daughters BF. It's costing me a hell of a lot more in bills.
I don't cry and whine about it day.

I just had a client e-mail and tell me she left the gas card I provide them with in the car. So I skipped out and grabbed it. OMG! The car is disgusting!!!
Food containers, chewed gum in wrappers, dirty tissues. Unreal! I came back into find that this car has been recorded as dirty since March 16th. And nothing has been done.
My maintenance man doesn't like to clean the ones that are Avis, they get left with me to use.
I don't get it?!?!?! It's your job whether it's my Vox rental or the borrowed Avis rental.

I'm tired. I feel like I'm being used at work and outside of work. Yes at least I get paid for the job. I keep my mouth shut on all accounts. Life goes on.

I did something dumb

I don't even know if I will post this.
All I know is I have to get it off my chest.
It's eating at me. I'm so angry at myself for doing this.
I don't know if I did it cause I want him to know he can trust NO ONE-or because I want him to know, I know he's lying to me???? Is he? Or is BM?
Well any of you who have been with me know how badly I have been crushing on RB.
I haven't said much about him lately, cause I heard shit. Not from him but from BM (mentioned in score card). I have tried so hard to just let it go.
Nope couldn't do it.
I could not get RB off my mind this weekend (probably cause he saw me in the parking lot on Friday and stopped me and we talked) I hadn't seen him in 3 weeks, before this. So I sent him an email. Pretty much asking what he wanted from me.
I got to work Monday and decided that it's none of my business whats going on in his life. "Move on!" I keep telling myself. Same thing many others have told me too. Sorry I didn't listen to ya all!
I should have left it at that. Nope not Spin! She feels her heart has been ripped out so she has to cause shit.
I tell him I heard things. And I would like to tell him.
He of course wants to know what I heard. I told him not over email.
I want to be face to face. I want to see if it's true or not. I think I can tell by his facial expression.
I don't really want to see him. He'll lie, about this one thing I know he will.
I know he's leaving his wife. He did tell me that. That was part of what I heard. Why does this guy have such a hold on me???? Why can't I just move on.
Honestly I told him for the 100th time today "good bye" maybe this one will stick.
I need some serious help!

Red Neck Country

I was sitting at the light last night talking on my cell.

I was telling the person on the other end that I lived in the back woods.

Oh ok, I'm true New Englander, but I don't live in the back woods. I don't chew tobacco and don't have a front tooth missing. I haven't cashed in my wedding band and diamond to get mud tires for my jeep. And My brother-law isn't also my grandfather. My Christmas have been taken down!

But to show you what I do live with I had to take this picture! A True Red Neck Truck!

BTW-I'm a Yankees fan. Not many of us in my area. I have always stood out from the crowd.
Maybe it's just one of my many ways I try to get attention.

Got some SWEET news the other day! Hubby came home and asked if I would like to take an all expenses paid trip to Mohegan Sun Casino?!?!?!? Hell yeah! The only real gambling I ever did was on a carnival cruise ship 20 years ago.

http://www.hotels.com/property.do?mtnHotelID=205111&displayAd=false&PSRC=G21&mcid=G21.G53000940.mohegan%20sun.exact&gclid=CNam0K_6wpkCFc5L5QodZ1kMtg

YUP! I'm staying there. For one night, with a king size bed. There better be some action!Mmmmmmm

Hubby has loyally worked for a tire company for 29 years. Actually 30 this July. His boss asked if he would like to go to the big tire convention happening. He has already paid for our room, gave us extra cash on the guest room credit card. He's now talking that he is going to give us cash for gas.

April 18th and 19th gonna go see how money I can lose! Yippee!

A day off....

Wasn't a whole lot of fun. I'm just taking time to use time so I don't lose it, in June our new fiscal year.
I was supposed to hook up with SL. I went to the town I was supposed to meet him in earlier then I was supposed to be there. My daughter decided to stay home from school. So I rushed out of the house before she came down stairs.
I called him he said this would be ok he could meet me in an hour. So I went to the store and purchased the new chairs I was looking for. Figuring this would be enough time. When I called him I was 30 minutes away from the town.
Well I texted him when I finished my shopping. No reply. I go to another store in this nasty little town killing time. I still don't hear from him. I text again. I'm leaving.....
I get to the first exit pull off the park and ride. Text again. Still nothing. We're talking over 2 hours now.
Finally he calls I'm 5 miles from home. He tells me to turn around and come back.
I didn't. For many reasons I won't go into. Well I'm not sure we're talking anymore....He told me that I was willing to take the risk with others and not him. That I didn't think that the benefits with him were worth the risk. RP's name kept coming up. Whom I have not been with in over 2 years. (we are still friends)
I get off the phone with him I get a text from RP. Are you ok? You haven't talked to me since I told you about the rumors. I told him I write back every time he writes. So he got mad and said if I left it up to him to call me every time we won't talk. I guess that's kinda what I secretly want. But I also like the attention. I like knowing I'm wanted......

What to talk about?

I still have nothing......
I drank too much last night as hubby tried to get the sink in and put three dents in it with a hammer.
I'm probably the only one who will notice. It's not bad. It's just the fact it happened.....
Got WW tonight. Feeling pretty tired. Would be so easy to blow it off.
I can't I will go....
Gonna stop at the local Sears on my way home from WW and buy hubby a new jigsaw as he has more counter top to cut for some shelving.
Not very nice words coming out of his mouth last night as he tried to get the piece of crap one he has now to work.
Spring is on the way. Had 12 deer run through the back yard two nights ago.
Last night I saw less deer. Only about 5 or 6, I stopped in the drive way and yelled up at them. They stopped in their tracks and watched me as I talked to them. That was pretty cool.
Burned my chest in the tanning bed. My salon wasn't open she is there when she feels like it. Went to another place and they let me in for 6 minutes. That was enough as I'm a bit burned on my chest today. Guess she wasn't lying when she said their beds are much stronger. It took until about 10 am today to show.

Can you say DAY FROM HELL

I feel like crap,,,,,having my second nasty cold in a two week period. NOT FAIR....
Yesterday I sat here at my desk could hardly hold up my head.
Today I head out the door at 5:30am to go work out. Hubby says are you sure you want to go to work? I can walk. I go. Guess I should have stayed in bed.
I was leaving the gym I watch the on coming traffic waiting to pull out. All traffic gone, pull out suddenly I have a car scrapping down the side of my front bumper. How to hell did I not see this car??? It's beyond me??? She pulls over I get out of my jeep and must have said I'm sorry 100 times. She says I don't want to report this. "what?" Nah we're both having a bad day......
Still waiting for the cops to come knocking. I was ready to call the police and do the whole report. I have witnesses it wasn't a hit and run. My instructor and her hubby were two cars back. Saw me get out and talk to her.
Is she driving without a license?? No insurance??? What???

Well the day is still young. The Ease dropper comes to me this morning and says I want to tell you sorry. Starts in on his blah blah. I stop him. What are you talking about. I'm thinking he is going to say something about the gent that lost his mom. Oh you know the other day. When you assumed I said you share porn with the office and not me. I lost it!!!!!
I assumed NOTHING! You said, geeezz I never get anything all the jokes, virus' and porn you don't share with me.....I let him have it!
So today after already telling me 16 times he was sorry, he had to bring it up again.
He pretty much accused me of telling every one in the office not to talk to him.
He is upset cause he has lashed out at me one too many times. So I decided to stop talking to him.
I will talk work related stuff with him. But don't try to be my friend.
Am I sounding bitchy? Probably, sorry he has bit me too many times. I don't want to get into it. Way too much junk.

This was being discussed when R decides to come for a visit. Too much drama for him.
I'm sure he thinks I bring it on myself.....Not sure he wants to talk to me anymore.

So I called my salon. I asked for the same deal she has given me the last 2 years.
Buy one month get the second free.
See when I get stressed (will pretty much an emotion)I get flushed all across my chest. When I tan this doesn't show up.....

Hmmm maybe I do too much bitching. I guess I should really find something new to talk about. I'm open to suggestions

A good blogger buddy tells me he needs to take a break.......

Ever feel you want to crawl in a hole????

Ease dropping

One thing I can't stand are people who ease drop on conversations and then butt into the conversation.

I think this is going to get me trouble today!

I'm asked a question by my boss. He answers for me! This is happening WAY TOO MUCH.
Yeah I'm a bit pissy about it.

She asked me the question again and I reply with "I don't know, why don't you ask D"
Does he get the hint??? NO!

Yesterday a dear friend (works here at the college) stopped by. His mom passed away right before I went on vacation. First time I had a chance to speak to him was yesterday. I talked to him and told him I was sorry for his loss.

My boss comes out and also talks to him about it.

The one conversation that D decides not to ease drop on.....
He pipes up and says "Hey how's your mom?"

Dumb ass!!!!

He comes to me later in the day and says. "oh I didn't realize she passed away."
I was pretty mean and told him he ease drops on all the conversations how could he possibility miss this one???

I am a pretty happy, get along with everyone person.
He makes it impossible for anyone to like him.
I'm just glad to know I'm not the only one, who can't stand working with him.

Thanks for letting me vent.....

Am I being played?????

Damn I so easy!

It was a 2 year affair. I broke it off. Got too scary, feelings and all getting mixed up with the sex.

Over text at that.......He texts this am.
Started out talking about weight. He was my old WW buddy.
He says he kept some of the weight off this last time around. I told him I could use him back with me in WW.
He asks is that the only way I can get you?
He goes on to tell me how much he likes it when it's just us, that its very hard for him to share me with others.
We haven't seen each other in months. He says he has tried to put me out of his mind.
He can't do it anymore he misses us.
I asked if he was playing me, he says no and please trust me.
This is a guy who doesn't fall in love. He goes on to tell me there are some things you can't control and the heart wants what the heart wants.
He wishes it could be just us. He has never said that.....He wants me to tell him what to do where to go from here.
I told him I don't want to lose his friendship.
I can't give him more than that....We will end up where we left off. It is too dangerous! There's more it just keeps going on how he can't stop thinking about my soft lips.... He's good!
Damn I can't, I can't take that road again. Yes it was fun, but,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Time of a new stroy

I promised someone I would write a new story....

Hmmm, need some time to get it good.

Wanted to have some phone sex this am, but mom called and was stopping by with dad.
Haven't seen dad since this summer.
For those of you who have been with me for some time, you know dad has just recently come back into my life after 17 years.
Had to take him over phone sex, even though I will get to see him again tonight as we're all going to the same retirement party.

And now my brain is on staining broads for the new kitchen, sanding and vanishing.

Come back soon hoping to have a good story. In a car with the sound of trains roaring down the tracks.

I lost a blogger friend. I'm sorry.....

Vacation, if you can call it that...

Gonna be home all next week with hubby.
Gutting the old kitchen and putting in a new one!
Yippee!
We're doing all the work. Going to be some long days and nights.
I will be bummed as I won't get ouy here much.
I haven't been out here much this week.
Trying to tie up all the loose ends.
I think I have finally got to a point of feeling like I can leave tonight on time and feel good I got everything done!
Happy week to you all.
I hope to post pic's when all is done!

May be an older post

Secret Desires did a post and it made me think of this poem I found in a magazine.

I keep it, to remind myself that I don't have to have the perfect perky boobs and skinny ass, to be desirable. By the way Secret you are very beautiful.

My butt is big and round
Like the letter C
And ten thousand lunges have made it rounder.
But no smaller and that’s just fine.
It’s a space heater for my side of the bed.
It’s my Ambassador to those
who walk behind me.
It’s a border collie that herds skinny
Women away from the best deals at
Clothing sales.
My butt is big and that’s just fine
and those who might scorn it
are invited to kiss it!

Sex Talk Meme (Firsts)

Rules to Isabella's Naughty Meme of Firsts:

1. Please post these at the beginning of your meme.
2. Please include a link to Sex Talk For Men.
3. Please include as many sordid details in your answers as possible -- if you haven't got any, make them up!
4. Tag 3 people.

1. First French kiss?
I think I was 14. It was in my cousins bedroom don't really remember it being all that good. Don't even remember the guys name.

2. First boyfriend/girlfriend.
First boyfriend? Hmmmm. Lets see. I thought he was my boyfriend. Found out years later he was doinking my sister. I wouldn't would give it up. She's 4 years older. We grew up in the country not many farm boys to go around had to share I guess.

3. First type.
The farm boy! Nothing like that farmers tan. Oh ok. That's all I had for choices.
I would come to what I called "the city" to visit my cousin and these guys she would try to hook me up with were all jocks. They didn't care for the unpolished farm girl.

4. First time you had sex.
It was awful. I will never forget as long as I live. His name was Howie! Yeah Howie. Don't forget I was a farm girl.
I have my sister to blame for this. I was at her house which was less than a mile from my house. I was 15 she was 19 living with her boyfriend. Well Howie came for visit and my sister invited him to stay the night with me.
At bed time she tossed out a condom and said have fun. Well he did! I hated it. Hurt like hell and it was all about him. I remember him pumping so hard he pushed me up the wall. NASTY!

5. First celebrity crush.
David Cassidy!

6. First sexual fantasy.
I want to squirt, I want to be thrown gently of course up against a wall. Hands held over my head and have a guy grab my leg pulling it up onto his hip and finger me until I squirt all over the place. I don't it to stop there. I want him to fuck me hard and fast. Like it's the first and last time we'll be together. I want him to grab my hair and pull me down to his cock and show me just what he wants me to do. Driver his cock deep in my throat until he cums. Yeah! That's mine.

7. First person you fell in love with.

Eric, I honestly thought I would marry him. Again my sister had a part in this. I went to visit her. New town years after the first one. And she invited the farmhand to dinner. He worked with her hubby. He came over for pizza. I was 21 he was 26. Didn't know at that time he was a virgin. We dated for a couple of years. He was beautiful. Turned out to be a logger. Strong beautiful guy. I still think of him.

8. First proper sex toy.

It was with my second hubby he bought a double headed dildo. I still have it still use it. But I would have to say my favorite is still the silver bullet I got for Christmas from a male fellow employee. yup you read that right....

9. First porn video.
How about a porn movie? We had midnight movies back in the day. Met this guy when I was 19 he was cutting trees along the road. I hooked up with him had wild sex in the woods. He took me to the XXX movie. Tried to get me to jack him off in the theater. No. I didn't

10. First sexy lingerie item/sexy briefs owned.

For my honeymoon a purple little number that fasten at the crotch. Silk & lace.

11. First time giving oral.

I believe it was with Rusty. We would go camping under the stars in the family apple orchard. My mom married his grandfather. Didn't swallow back then.

12. First time getting oral.

I don't remember Rusty even going down om me. I would have to say it was the tree guy. He taught me a lot about sex. All though I was 26 before I had my first orgasm.

13. First one night stand.

If you went out with the guy a few times and after many dates you have sex. But only the one time. Does that count?

14. First dirty book/dirty mag read.

My cousin R used to keep them under his bed. He would share. I used to love to read the story. Get myself all worked up and no one to help my out.

Thanks smile I enjoyed that.

So I think I will pick:

Siranneals

Mike

Autumn

Secret Desires

Breezes through the grass