Hooking up Last week

-This is a very long post-hope you can get through it-

I had mentioned I had hooked up last week but didn't give a lot detail.
As I have been feeling a bit out of sorts about it.
I believe there was a bit of guilt for us both.
Even though he has an awesome wife who told him to "go for it".

We have talked about it for sometime and finally picked a day.
He found the hotel room and we met 1/2 way.
I got there before him. Sat in my vehicle for a bit and waited. The maintenance man was walking and and kept giving me a look.
I text him to let him know I was there. He was still 20 minutes out. So I took a little drive came back and waited less than 5 minutes. I see a truck pull up. OMG! It's him as we had exchanged pictures I knew it.
I get out and walk to his truck. He gets out, much taller than I expected. He says hello and gives me a gentle kiss. Soft and warm.
We walk to the office together he gives all the info to the front desk clerk.
Walking out in I'm front of him, he states "I can see this is going to be fun"
I blush hoping he can see it from behind me.
We find our room. He opens the door and waves me in.
I'm very nervous this is really all new to me. I grew up in the hills of Vermont on dairy farms.
Once inside I turn and he comes to me and gives me another kiss. He tells me soft lips.
I'm trembling so bad he feels it. He reassures me it's ok.
Tells me I'm prettier than my picture. I glow, and politely say "thank you"
As we kiss I believe I'm the first to start unbuttoning his shirt.
Once we're both naked he takes me to the bed and we kiss and fondle each other. He's the perfect gentleman.
Sticking his fingers in his mouth. Looking at me with lust in his eyes, he slides the into my warm awaiting pussy. I instantly moan with pleasure and close me eyes. He goes down on me and I have an orgasm almost immediately. He has me moaning louder and bucking off the bed.
I need to taste him. He pulls himself up to me we kiss I taste myself of his lips.
I now go down on him. I have seen pictures he's big! Well he's bigger than the pics show. I tell him so. I lick my lips and take just the tip of his cock. Pulling away I slide my tongue up and down his shaft to get him wet with my saliva. I then take all of him, well as much as I can. (-;
I tried to take him all in my mouth. I wanted to.

He asked do you want to feel my cock in your pussy. I let out a husky, yes please.
He puts on a condom. Comes back to the bed and as promised. Looks into my eyes as he slides into me. I love the feeling of him inside me. He's hits bottom. I told him he would.
The first round and slow and gentle. I cum again. When he gets close he pulls out and I take him in my mouth and he fills my mouth with his hot cum.

We lay on the bed together I'm breathless. We just lay there. Talk, close our eyes and catch our breath.

The second time around I start. We're just chatting learning about each other running our hands over each other. I start playing and getting him hard again. This time. I believe the whole hotel heard me. A number of orgasms. Wild fast fun.
On my knees, on my back, in my ass in my pussy, my legs wrapped tightly around his back.
He tells me to hang on, my arms wrapped around his neck my legs still wrapped around his back. He pulls us of the bed and now he's on his back I'm on top. Ahhh every girls dream right? Legs wrapped around a guy he's still deep inside you.
Thrusting myself deep on to him I cry with pleasurable pain as I jam him into as far as he go. Hitting bottom every time I thrust down on him.
I beg, will you please come inside me this time? I feel cum pulsing up and out. Mmmmm

Laying there he realizes he is hungry. It's 1:00pm. I haven't had anything to eat yet. He states his bagel from 6:00am is gone. I fear I won't be able to eat as my nerves are now, flipping from excited fun sex, the fear is gone.
We go into town kinda cool as we both drove an hour him from the south me from the north.
He recognised the area from years ago. It made for easy conversation.

Back that hotel I went to the rest room. When I came out he was on the phone with his wife.

We ended up laying together for a bit longer still fully clothed.
I don't know what made us decide to go for it again?
Maybe talking about the anal? Off the come the clothes. He's standing there with a raging hard on. Looks at me and points to the floor and says on you knees. I gladly obey.
I take him in my mouth hoping I might be able to take all of him. Again I can't. I gag and keep trying. He is thrusting hard face fucking me deep. I'm gagging but I don't want it to stop. My hands are clinched to his firm ass his hands in my hair.

"On the bed and on your knees" Again I gladly obey.
"Are you ready for me to fuck your ass?"
"Yes Please"
He starts slowly, Ouuuuch.
"Is that an ouch?'
"yes it's okay keeping going slowly"
Once he was in there it was great.
Took a bit to take him all but he knew when it was safe to start thrusting hard and fast in me.
I was so amazed at how wonderful he felt in me thrusting so hard and fast.
He told me to lay and spread my legs. I don't know how many orgasms he gave me but they kept coming harder and faster. When he came, all I could say was "THAT WAS AMAZING!"
Again I was breathless.

I loved how he gave me commands on your knees, on your back, suck my cock. I obeyed with pleasure.

The next day I was so exhausted. I tried to blame every muscle ache on him but he wouldn't take credit. I guess part of it could have been the work out a few hours before we I came to meet him.

It was an amazing experience. I thanked him, I emailed his beautiful wife the very next day and thanked her for letting her husband please me.

As I have said this has caused some tension between my lover and myself.
He called this am to tell me he won't be hooking up with his ex lover tomorrow as planned.
he told her there would be no hook ups. He had decided against it.
As I told him I didn't know how I would feel. I couldn't give him an answer until after the fact.
I have not rights to you. I did it now you get your turn. As he wouldn't tell me not to do it. I couldn't tell him not to do it.
One thing he has asked me over and over. "Is the benefit worth the risk?"
He decided not knowing how I would feel wasn't worth the risk.
He didn't want to hurt me.
I will do my best to never hurt him again either.
If the chance to play does come along again.
I will only accept if he can be part of it.
I'm thankful for the experience.
I don't regret it.
But it's not worth risk of hurting him or losing him.
I believe this has only made us stronger.