TMI Tuesday #193 (rebroadcast)

1. How many speeding tickets have you had? Accidents?

Never got a speeding ticket. One accident. had the car for less than a month. It was July and the windows steamed up. Looked down to find the defrost. Next thing I know telephone pole was scraping along the side of my car.

2. Boxers, briefs or commando?

None of the the above. I opt for boy shorts with lace around the legs.

3. Have you ever had sex in your office or your place of employment?

Oh yeah! More than once!

4. Do you or your so own a motorcycle? Do you ever ride one? Do you wear a helmet when you ride?

No don't have one. Would ride yes. Would most definitely wear a helmet.

5. Ever been skinny dipping?

Yup I was in high school. With my sister and a bunch of her friends. Co-ed. She was such a bad influence on me.

Bonus: Ever been arrested? Turned someone in/had someone arrested?

Nope

Spinning again!

I got back into my spinning class this am after taking months off due to nerve damage in my shoulder.
First of all -Yippee.
Secondly-damn my inner thighs hurt already.
That's not a complaint I love the feel of hard worked muscles.

Run Away!

If were that I easy I would.
I'm not running this time.
I have spent too much of my time getting tired of dealing with things and running.
Jobs & marriages.
Yes I do bitch about this little bastard! BUT he isn't FUCKING pushing me out of a job I have love and have been doing for 7 years. He has been there for less an 2 years.
I'm not the only one that he has pissed off.
Yes I have it worst. Cause I'm little miss friendly and invite everyone into my world with open arms.
Well the caution light is now flashing! SLOW down. Almost at a stop with everyone.
I know you people don't really know me. I have times I need to vent. This is what I'm doing.
Things were good for about 2 weeks. He stayed on his side of the office I stayed on my,
Until this last situation. The only thing this did was make the people who did talk to him feel the stabs in the back.
He made his bed. It won't be long.
He told me he felt he was being driven out. This Weasel you have done all on your own.

WHAT TO HELL IS HE THINKING?!?!?!

DS was confronted by my supervisor 'cause she was told he was talked to by BB (big boss) her supervisor. I had my meeting-I was told DS would also be called in, behind closed doors as I was. She assumed the same happened with him. But that DS called the meeting....

Well keep in mind the DS and BB have children that are going to be marry.
Well BB told my super that he and DS had the talk. She confronted DS. Come to find out he saw him in the local drug store and cornered him.

Yeah nice I get pulled behind closed doors- they have a chat in the parking lot.
"Please understand DS Spin doesn't want you as a friend"

So DS starts all over AGAIN!
He thought I would give in and be "his friend"?!?!?
Asked for a hug and actually started coming at me with open arms????
Nothing has changed! If anything it's worse now! Get to hell away from me!
Yeah to say the least I'm PISSED!

Guys help me out?!?!??!

Maybe it's just these damn New Englanders-No offense Hubman. You're not included in this.
But it seems the guys I am around are,,,,,Hmmmm I don't know???
Playing games. I thought we women were the only ones to play games.
Maybe it's spring fever.
They are like wild animals and looking to Breed.
The mating game! That's it! It's such a rural.
I don't get it. It's starts with emails. Days later they may stop in to say hello.
Emails again about the conversation that went on when they stopped in.
They never really make any serious passes. Just testing the waters I guess.
The best part of all this. We will all be together on Friday at our big "ole company picnic.
Funny how you have the ones who will talk on email-but they won't say boo at the picnic.
Ha I love this place. Really I do. Cause I know their game....
Guess I just need to know why do they talk about what they like and then in the very next email "I'm a good boy now"
HUH?
Okay, that's fine with me. I'm being a good girl too. At least in the real world.
My blog world is a different story that they will never now about if I can help it.

STOP THE MADDNESS!

I have a dear dear friend who has tried so hard to help me.
It's hopeless.
He told me to put a rubber band on my wrist and each time I started or got involved in gossip to snap the rubber band. DAMN! I had one hell of a red wrist!
Even though I still deal with it and sometimes get involved. I'm so much more aware of it.
I want to run away!
I got in a HUGE fight with a fellow employee, because of it this am. He wanted to see if talking to me (about the other door) would get a reaction. Well it did!

All weekend with my family, the evenings with my hubby, come back to work and get it here too.

Is there any where at all that this shit does NOT happen?
I'm tired of it. I just don't want to be a part of it. But there is no reprieve.

Friday fill in's

#128
And...here we go!


1. I grew up thinking I would never grow old, ha jokes on me, surprise!

2. My yahoo mail was the last website I was at before coming here.

3. Why don't you just go back to your desk and leave me alone?

4. Having a glass of wine and sex helps me relax.

5. Thanks for the people in my life who stand by me no matter how bad it/I get.

6. Having someone beg you to be their friend and not taking no for an answer very off-putting.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a sunny beautiful weekend, tomorrow my plans include relaxing and maybe going to the races and Sunday, I want to be a good girl and go to church and then come home and watch a naughty movie!

Sorry not my best still stressing abit.

Life is funny?!?!?

One door closes and a door that closed months ago, reopens.
Within a 24 hour period.
Heart feels a tug from the closed door. But I won't try and push it open.
The other door that I haven't tried to push open.
Reopened all on it's own today, not one little nudge from me.
Will it stay open? Who knows?
Take what your given and enjoy it for the time you have it.
Life is too short not to.
Complete Surprise! heart went bang bang!
Smile spread across my face.
Life does go on........

Until I'm blue in the face!

I have told a fellow employee I will not be his friend.

I have gone over this many many times.

He came to me Friday and tried again.

Again we went over it and over it. Monday he came to me AGAIN!?!!?

Again I say work issues ONLY! He's very cleaver!

He finds things that are work related to find a way to talk to me. He came to me about a person who signed off on a driver test and asked if I knew who they were.

He usually emails me the mileage on rentals he uses for testing-today he has to come and asked if he could just me.

I have NEVER in my life had anyone EVER want to be part of my life as much as he

does!
He wants to do everything I do.
He joined my work out class-didn't last long thank goodness!
He took his father-in-law to my hairdresser!
He wants to starting going camping.
He wants to join WW-He weighs 138 lbs!!!!
I went to show my female fellow employee a dress in a catalog he ripped it from my hands before she had a chance to take it.

I know this all sounds catty but I am at my wits end!

It's getting scary! Restraining order?!?!?!

Friday fill in update...

Well I did sit on my porch and have my wine.

Made an awesome dinner of grilled chicken, tossed baby greens, grilled summer and zuke.

I didn't bark, bark, bark.

I didn't get much sun it was nice out but I was gladly helping the kids move 1.9 miles down the road.

I did go to church-back to the kids new place with lunch and help with cleaning, unpacking, painting. Yes, I was invited. She stopped by first thing and asked for her moms help. I stayed and helped out as much as I could.

I did bake but not until about 7pm.

I was actually pretty good. I only ate one fresh out of the oven chocolate chip cookie. YUMMY!

What a good idea

I stole this idea from Hubman.

Better than my whining. So two post today.

And...here we go!

1. I can't wait to get home.

2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been Salads, pasta, green leaf potato you name it.

3. When I get great sex I bark! bark! bark!

4. A nice long walk helps keep my ass in better shape.

5. I would love to hear some good news.

6. When all is said and done, things will get better.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner and sitting on my porch with a glass of wine, tomorrow my plans include working in my gardens and getting some sun and Sunday, I want to go to church and come and bake chocolate chip cookies.

Thanks to Hubman I'm glad I read your blog today!

Still looking....

I'm looking for my happy place.

I realized last night how I allow people to walk all over me.

I actually have a comment a blogger wrote on day I printed off and tacked to my partition as a reminder. Sits right in front of my face. It states "No-one else is living your life except you" Isn't that the greatest!?

I think I need to make it bigger. As I have not been following this.

I allow people to use me use me use me. My child is the best at this.

She knows right where that guilt button is and pushes it ALL the time.

As I told a very good companion last night. I have NO-ONE but me to blame.

I gave my 3 old twins everything they wanted when I left their father. I didn't want them to want for anything. And they didn't! What kinda mother leaves a child's daddy. Oh we had joint custody. They got to see him as much as me. But even before they knew what guilt was I taught them. "Oh your sad? You miss daddy. Let mommy fix that and buy you a toy."

In the shower this am at the gym. I'm thinking how am I going to deal with D (nosey) this am.
If he asks me how my WW meeting went. I will just say "Lets please keep our conversations to work and not my personal life. It's like he knows when to NOT speak to me.
He said NOTHING. Yes this good.

It's just another one of those things. When he does ask it will throw me off guard and I forget how to say it without sound harsh. Or fear of sounding harsh.

My parents raised me and my 4 siblings to speak when you're spoke to. Never talk back. And if you don't have anything good to say don't say it.
So I still keep my mouth shut to those who I have a difficult time with.
Better that way right?

I say this because I'm allowing him, D ruin my contentment.
I can't go on like this. How do I STOP!??!!?

TMI Tuesday #189 - Dating edition

1. What was the last movie you saw on a date?

Hmmm you mean before marriage? I don't recall?? But I do remember a guy taking me to a XXX movie. Used to have them right here in my town at Midnight. Young 19 y/r he was I think mid 20's never thought I be the same.

2. What was the last meal you had on a date?

I remember what desert was. Evil grin

3. When was the last time you made out in the car on a date? More?

It's was at the drive in movies! I was 17 he was 151/2.

4. Using a dating websites do you think you are more likely to find a "hook up" or a relationship?

I would have to say a hook up. Are any of them really looking for a "relationship"?

5. Do you have any special "first" date rituals? Flowers, certain restaurant, ect.

Nope can't say as I do. Just a date would be nice...... Been way too long. Hmmm nice dinner a movie,,,, ahhhh


BONUS QUESTION: Do you believe in sex on the first date? Can a relationship bloom if you have sex on the first date?Happy TMI!!

Yeah sure go for the sex it'll end up being the first and last date I believe. Why pay for any more dinners when you get what you want the first time.
That is unless you were amazing the first time. BUT who are we fooling we all know the first time you don't know what he likes. Chances are you're done.

Grab those little things!!!

Sitting at the light last night on my way home. On the cell chatting with my daughter about dinner. I look to the left lane and see the most beautiful big black lab in the back of this little blue car. I just gaze, thinking what a gorgeous dog. Suddenly I see a hand come up under the chin of the dog. I look to the front seat and see the driver looking at me and giving me a huge grin.

Of course I smile back and turn to watch the light. Still red crap! I can feel the flush on my cheeks. I look again and now there's a golden lab! He has 3 dogs! Yup still giving me that huge grin. I have to say it made me feel good.

Hub just told me a few nights ago, that he notices people looking at me. See I still see myself the 45 lbs heavier. He always tells me when we're out and about. "Hey that guy just checked out your ass."

I have to say these are the moments I need to remember. It makes me feel pretty good.


Funny thing I was reading blogs this am and http://rumblingsandbumblings.blogspot.com/ had a dream and she asks "Any dream analysis people out there??"

I had a couple of weird ones, BUT the one that really stands out for me.
These two guys come to us looking to get money to fund some guns. As there church is putting a wild game dinner and they need to go out and hunt the wild game. (This isn't even close to the work I do???)
But anyway to make a long dream short. They are leaving and Nosey jumps up and positions himself to be frisked?? So the guy is like ok?!?!?! And frisks him. Than my alarm went off.....