Friday fill in's

#128
And...here we go!


1. I grew up thinking I would never grow old, ha jokes on me, surprise!

2. My yahoo mail was the last website I was at before coming here.

3. Why don't you just go back to your desk and leave me alone?

4. Having a glass of wine and sex helps me relax.

5. Thanks for the people in my life who stand by me no matter how bad it/I get.

6. Having someone beg you to be their friend and not taking no for an answer very off-putting.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a sunny beautiful weekend, tomorrow my plans include relaxing and maybe going to the races and Sunday, I want to be a good girl and go to church and then come home and watch a naughty movie!

Sorry not my best still stressing abit.

Life is funny?!?!?

One door closes and a door that closed months ago, reopens.
Within a 24 hour period.
Heart feels a tug from the closed door. But I won't try and push it open.
The other door that I haven't tried to push open.
Reopened all on it's own today, not one little nudge from me.
Will it stay open? Who knows?
Take what your given and enjoy it for the time you have it.
Life is too short not to.
Complete Surprise! heart went bang bang!
Smile spread across my face.
Life does go on........

Until I'm blue in the face!

I have told a fellow employee I will not be his friend.

I have gone over this many many times.

He came to me Friday and tried again.

Again we went over it and over it. Monday he came to me AGAIN!?!!?

Again I say work issues ONLY! He's very cleaver!

He finds things that are work related to find a way to talk to me. He came to me about a person who signed off on a driver test and asked if I knew who they were.

He usually emails me the mileage on rentals he uses for testing-today he has to come and asked if he could just me.

I have NEVER in my life had anyone EVER want to be part of my life as much as he

does!
He wants to do everything I do.
He joined my work out class-didn't last long thank goodness!
He took his father-in-law to my hairdresser!
He wants to starting going camping.
He wants to join WW-He weighs 138 lbs!!!!
I went to show my female fellow employee a dress in a catalog he ripped it from my hands before she had a chance to take it.

I know this all sounds catty but I am at my wits end!

It's getting scary! Restraining order?!?!?!

Friday fill in update...

Well I did sit on my porch and have my wine.

Made an awesome dinner of grilled chicken, tossed baby greens, grilled summer and zuke.

I didn't bark, bark, bark.

I didn't get much sun it was nice out but I was gladly helping the kids move 1.9 miles down the road.

I did go to church-back to the kids new place with lunch and help with cleaning, unpacking, painting. Yes, I was invited. She stopped by first thing and asked for her moms help. I stayed and helped out as much as I could.

I did bake but not until about 7pm.

I was actually pretty good. I only ate one fresh out of the oven chocolate chip cookie. YUMMY!

What a good idea

I stole this idea from Hubman.

Better than my whining. So two post today.

And...here we go!

1. I can't wait to get home.

2. My favorite thing for dinner lately has been Salads, pasta, green leaf potato you name it.

3. When I get great sex I bark! bark! bark!

4. A nice long walk helps keep my ass in better shape.

5. I would love to hear some good news.

6. When all is said and done, things will get better.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner and sitting on my porch with a glass of wine, tomorrow my plans include working in my gardens and getting some sun and Sunday, I want to go to church and come and bake chocolate chip cookies.

Thanks to Hubman I'm glad I read your blog today!

Still looking....

I'm looking for my happy place.

I realized last night how I allow people to walk all over me.

I actually have a comment a blogger wrote on day I printed off and tacked to my partition as a reminder. Sits right in front of my face. It states "No-one else is living your life except you" Isn't that the greatest!?

I think I need to make it bigger. As I have not been following this.

I allow people to use me use me use me. My child is the best at this.

She knows right where that guilt button is and pushes it ALL the time.

As I told a very good companion last night. I have NO-ONE but me to blame.

I gave my 3 old twins everything they wanted when I left their father. I didn't want them to want for anything. And they didn't! What kinda mother leaves a child's daddy. Oh we had joint custody. They got to see him as much as me. But even before they knew what guilt was I taught them. "Oh your sad? You miss daddy. Let mommy fix that and buy you a toy."

In the shower this am at the gym. I'm thinking how am I going to deal with D (nosey) this am.
If he asks me how my WW meeting went. I will just say "Lets please keep our conversations to work and not my personal life. It's like he knows when to NOT speak to me.
He said NOTHING. Yes this good.

It's just another one of those things. When he does ask it will throw me off guard and I forget how to say it without sound harsh. Or fear of sounding harsh.

My parents raised me and my 4 siblings to speak when you're spoke to. Never talk back. And if you don't have anything good to say don't say it.
So I still keep my mouth shut to those who I have a difficult time with.
Better that way right?

I say this because I'm allowing him, D ruin my contentment.
I can't go on like this. How do I STOP!??!!?

TMI Tuesday #189 - Dating edition

1. What was the last movie you saw on a date?

Hmmm you mean before marriage? I don't recall?? But I do remember a guy taking me to a XXX movie. Used to have them right here in my town at Midnight. Young 19 y/r he was I think mid 20's never thought I be the same.

2. What was the last meal you had on a date?

I remember what desert was. Evil grin

3. When was the last time you made out in the car on a date? More?

It's was at the drive in movies! I was 17 he was 151/2.

4. Using a dating websites do you think you are more likely to find a "hook up" or a relationship?

I would have to say a hook up. Are any of them really looking for a "relationship"?

5. Do you have any special "first" date rituals? Flowers, certain restaurant, ect.

Nope can't say as I do. Just a date would be nice...... Been way too long. Hmmm nice dinner a movie,,,, ahhhh


BONUS QUESTION: Do you believe in sex on the first date? Can a relationship bloom if you have sex on the first date?Happy TMI!!

Yeah sure go for the sex it'll end up being the first and last date I believe. Why pay for any more dinners when you get what you want the first time.
That is unless you were amazing the first time. BUT who are we fooling we all know the first time you don't know what he likes. Chances are you're done.