Frustrated

Yeah I'm frustrated.

Bad enough I'm sexually frustrated.

But hubs decided last night would be a good time to have some fun.

What's he do waits until I'm half asleep. Than starts playing. AFTER his TV show is over.

Nope at that point I didn't want to play on another 3day headache, stressed and tired.

Yeah yeah I will never be able to complain about this again I know.

But you know what? I take my shower at 7am. It's more than 12 hours later. Sure I would love for you to go down on me. But not without me washing first.

What upsets me is that he could have communicated with me.

Simple really! "Hey baby I'm horny tonight why don't you clean that pussy you have been sitting on all day before you come bed?"

Rather than wait until I'm curled under the blankets in dream land and wake me by rubbing my nipple.

Yes I should have been more than happy to jump up at 10:30 pm and go wash and come back and spread my legs.

I'm up every day at 5am at the gym at 6am working out for an hour.

My job in now NON-STOP. I was tired. Why not skip the tv and jump me at 9pm?

We will be mariied for 8 years the end of next month.

I have told him a number of times "TALK TO ME"

Don't get me work I love him dearly. But he needs to communicate with me.
There was no signs at all before bed what he was thinking......

Sorry about venting. Wish I had more time I want to come visit you all.

TMI Tuesday #205

1. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
depeche mode

2. You seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
Clothes! Shoes! I love shoes! Maybe some new workout cloths they have a great tank at Kohl's.


3. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
Mid 1800's Love the west. I believe I would want to be an Indian.

4. What is your favorite curse word?
The F word I try to not use it. But do too much!


5. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Not so sure he's the lucky one?? Vin Diesel Damn he is beautiful!

Bonus (as in optional):You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be? To be invisible~all those times I say oh I wish I could be a fly on the wall.....

trapped.. in bondage

Even wonder what it would be like?

We met on line. We talked for over 6 months before deciding to meet in person.
He gave me directions to a little cafe just outside of town.
I knew who I was looking for as we had exchanged pictures.
He had already ordered drinks for us both.
I dressed as he requested. Black short skirt, black heels, he let me choose my top so I decided a loose front button silk blouse, no panties or bra.
As I walk to sit with him I could feel my erect nipples swaying against the thin fabric.
The smile on his face tells me he approves of the outfit.
I start to slide into the booth across from him. He slides out and tells me to get in beside him. I obey.
He lays his hand on my thigh and asks if I had any trouble finding the place. I tell him his directions were perfect.
We order our dinner. I'm not feeling much like eating as I know we will soon be headed to the hotel room he has reserved for us.
Upon leaving the cafe in the parking lot he runs his hand over my ass. Grins and says "good girl".
I follow him to the hotel. He slips his hand around my waist. leans close to my hear and states remember the safe word. "Yes Sir" I reply.
Inside he closes the door. turns to me and the butterflies start to flutter even more then when I first made eye contact with him at the cafe.
He moves in close, his lips brush my as he starts to unbutton my blouse.
My mind is racing. I close my eyes. I feel his hand on my breast then his lips.
He motions for me to go to the bed. "sit and take off you skirt. Leave your heels on.
I see a pile of clothes that look like a bed sheet that has been ripped into strips.
Hmmmm I think to myself.
Okay he says lay down on your belly. Again I obey, Yes Sir.
First he blindfolds me. I wonder what have I done??? Should I use the safe word? Just to test him? No. I don't want to upset him...
I feel him tying my ankles then pulling them up to my back and he tells me to put my hand behind my back, I do so.
Once I'm tied. I don't hear anything my heart is pounding. What have I done???
I hear water running in the bath. The shower comes on. Soon I hear him turn off the water and come back out.
He asks how I'm doing.
I say ok.....
I feel him sit next to me on the bed. He runs his finger over my lips. puts his finger in my mouth and wets my lips. He's moving on the bed again. I feel his cock pressing against my lips now. I open my mouth and welcome him.
Slowly stroking me in and out.
I feel my pussy getting wet. I want to grab him and pull him deeper into my mouth.
I try to wiggle free from my bondage. "Easy" he moans "you don't need your hands. Just suck me the way you are."
I moan and push my face closer he responds by thrusting deeper into my throat.
I feel his fingers finding my wetness. He starts rubbing my clit and driving fingers into my wet pussy.
I'm squirming and moaning as he thrust he cock deeper into my mouth and his fingers into my pussy. I'm very wet. I want to come but know I have to want for him to tell me I can. I taste his precum he is so close to coming will he let me come too?
Suddenly I feel the hot gush in my mouth. He groans out a come for me now!
I relax and let my whole body shudder with an orgasm longer and harder than I have ever experienced.

What am I doing?

Why can't I be happily married?

I love my husband.

I feel I can't be truthful with him.

I don't have a good sex life.

We have good sex when we have sex.

I like sex I want sex.

I will try to go find it.

I hate that I have secrets.

I fear I will get caught.

I worry hub will one day find out.

I don't ever want to hurt him.

I think about closing my blog.

I email with some of you and wonder what you "really" thing of me?

I like being a little slut.

I like to flirt.

I like attention.

I used to be very shy.

I never wanted to be the center of attention.

Now I want it all, all the attention I can get.

When is this all going to caught up to me and bite me in the ass?

Fantasises

Aren't fantasises a funny thing?
I have a story first....
We met at my work pretty risky as people do come and go on the weekends.
We went to my office. He started by taking off my shirt and bra. Pinched my nipples and started sucking them.
I'm wet instantly. He's sitting in my chair. He turns me to the bay window takes down my jeans and motions for my to get up on the bay cell. I do so and spread my legs. He licks and sucks my clit until I have a hot orgasm which doesn't take very long. I need to taste him. I get down on my knees and start sucking him. Bringing my mouth down on his hard cock. Oh I love how he tastes. He now seats me in my chair and slides his hard into my very wet pussy. He's very large! Pumping me hard and fast hitting bottom and making my cry out with pleasurable pain. I have another orgasm. This in turn making him slow as he's not ready to do the same.
He now takes his place back in the chair and I back to him and slide my pussy over his hard cock again. I'm now in control I ride him hard and again start to have an orgasm and he stops me. Even though I'm no longer pumping my wet pussy down on his cock the orgasm still comes for me.
Now he has me on my desk facing him again. Pinching my nipples and sucking them. I return the favor to his nipples, sucking and nibbling. He's says get yourself off as I watch you. Rubbing my finger over my clit, bringing it to my mouth, then back to my clit until I cum. The whole time he is stroking himself. He brings himself out of his chair and slides his hard shaft in my wet pussy. Now thrusting hard into my pussy. Having to slow or stop at times.
He decides he can't take any more and asks if he can cum on my face. I nod and get on my knees in front of him with mouth open and ready. Eyes are closed, I feel his hot cum hit my forehead then my cheek and mouth and lip. When I hear him stop groaning with pleasure. I lick the cum off my face I can reach with my tongue.
I walked around my office naked for a minute or so. Washed my face got dressed and walked him to his car.I may have been seen giving him a last kiss. Not sure?

So, I have a question. How is it I can fantasize like this and then watch the movie "Catch and Release" and want the beautiful slow love making they did in that movie? I'm weird. I want it all and both ways.

Why???

I dreamt about Tall Man Molly last night. It's been over a year he's been gone. I try so hard to forget him. But there are so many reminders where ever I go. I miss him.

I told the Marine I'm done playing his game. Well I sent it in an email on Wednesday. He never responded so I'm guessing that means he's ok with it.

Off to my meeting, then the rest of the day is mine to do as I please.
I hope you all have a great Labor day weekend.
I will be thinking of you as I sit next to a camp fire and toast marshmallows.

HUMP DAY!

Wait?!?!?! I have Friday off so what does that make today for me?
I'm going camping!!!!
I'm going camping!!!!
Thank goodness I have Friday off and I'm camping.
Cause am going to tell you something you probably don't care to hear.
Man bitch-Nosey-the names I remember I gave him in early grips.
Well one of his fellow employees (not me) decided it was time to go to HR about him.
He mentioned that I and others in the office feel the same.
He came back from his meeting stating we need to go and have a meeting also.
Well I emailed and they said no you don't "have to". The pier pressure was too great from the other employee. So I decided to make an appointment. Did this last week.
Funny thing, things have been going pretty well, him leaving me alone and all.
Yeah up until this week. Monday he decided to blow up at my boss and demanded she call a meeting between her, him and myself. For his childish acts. He overheard a conversation between myself and my maintenance man-I stated I may not have a van for his testing on Wed. Rather than come to me he went to her.... See we have to work closely together the only conversation between us is supposed to be work. I would have told him as soon as I knew myself. He could have come to me and asked. But I decided he wanted to put her in the middle I would leave her there. She messed up the info and gave it to him wrong. Not wise thinking from me. I should have been the adult in the situation and went directly to him.
Over an hour listening to him cry and whine about what a good person he is and why does everyone hate me???? Why do they all isolate me??? He believes (in his little mind)I have the power to make everyone in here hate him. Because I was the first one he verbally attached months ago, they all witnessed this. Why would they want to talk to him?????
Done! Thanks.
Wish me luck at my HR meeting on Friday!

The man in the hall

I was trotting up the stairs one day last week.

I look up and there's a guy standing and waiting to come down.

I'm munching on something as I head up the stairs he too is munching.

Looks at me and smiles, says "hmmmm guess it's its that time of day huh?"

I smile back, yup, blush......

I think to myself, how come I never noticed him before now?

Today (Monday) I come out of the bathroom. And who is just walking away from the

vending machine? Him!

He smiles and goes on down the hall.

Who is he????

Had to talk to my Marine today. Was totally professional with him.
I hope I make him wonder when I can tell he just wants to try and make my panties wet and he doesn't know if he did or not.....